Thursday, January 07, 2010

The 2010 Chronicles

I've always been the person who knew exactly what I wanted to do in life. Well, almost "always". In high school, I thought I'd be an actress on Broadway. That is, until freshman year at Emerson College and my Monday - Friday 8am acting class that left me a weeping mess after having to delve into all of the skeletons in my closet so I could draw on them to give a really kick ass performance but since I was only 17 and 50,000 miles from home and super crazy homesick, it just left me hating my acting teacher and thinking she was the devil for making me cry so much.

But once I hit my junior year of college and discovered that people actually make movies and somehow they don't magically appear in a theater near me-- I fell in love. And since that moment of enlightenment, I've been on a crazy mission of being a filmmaker. Never once did I think I'd change paths/careers or dabble or canoodle in something else. I kind of have a one track mind, you see. When I set my mind to something, I'm kind of fierce in trying to make it happen. For good or bad, that's just how I am. And for good or bad, I can't help it.

I've made lots of headway since then. Slowly but surely. This is not an overnight kind of thing, believe it or not. Those "overnight successes" that they write about have usually been working their asses off for years and years before then.

I don't think I'm the next Kathryn Bigelow or Jane Campion, in fact usually I think I suck 90% of the time. That's just the self loathing in me. But I love making movies and writing stories more than anything else in the world. So if I'm at least half decent at it, I'll continue to do it. It's kind of something I can't not do, y'know?

I've been chronicling my journey for over ten years now. Unfortunately, the early chronicles live in a folder somewhere on a hard drive somewhere in a file cabinet in a closet in my office.

But I'm excited to chronicle 2010. A year I know will be a good one. Both for me and for so many of my friends. There are lots of irons in the fire (is that the right phrase?)-- as a director and a screenwriter. Probably more as a screenwriter, but I'm totally cool with that too.

Hopefully I can continue to offer a little bit of perspective into one filmmaker's adventures. Because they're all so completely different.

Ok, enough of this. I have to go finish a family comedy outline to hand off to my writing partner.

1 comment:

mikehedge said...

Kat 2010 is here!!!

let's rock it!